Author: Marcel (17) from the United States is in a committed relationship with his girlfriend (16) for 6 months
Number of his sexual partners:
1
Number of her sexual partners:
1
How long have you suffered from retroactive jealousy?
For about 4 months
How much time a day do you spend thinking about your partner’s past?
Countless hours.
How did you find out about your partner’s past?
She told me of giving somebody a BJ, but didn’t tell me his name. Then I found out through others that it was one of my friends.
Have you talked to them about your retroactive jealousy and if so what happens?
We talked about and she understands, but I feel like sometimes she gets annoyed with me.
Tell us what exactly you’re jealous about in their past?
That she done something like that to one of my friends without thinking it through first.
What bugs you the most about your partner’s past?
That she could’ve done anything else such as staying home or even saying “No”, but she didn’t.
Have you ever snooped through your partner’s personal belongings off or online?
No, I don’t like to invade her privacy.
Is your partner still in contact with their ex-lover(s) or does your partner contact them?
No she isn’t. She hates him.
Have you met your partner’s ex-lover(s) and if so what happened?
I knew him before it all happened since we were good friends. But now everytime I look at him I feel queasy and I feel nothing but anger and hate.
If you could get one image out of your head regarding your partner’s past, what would it be?
The one thing I could get out my head is the things they did to one another.
Is there anything else you’d like to share? Fire away!
I wish that it never happened. We took one anothers virginity, but the fact that she just done something like that to someone makes me think that deep down, she really didn’t care about doing it. And I tend to drink now, as there’s a really large and deep hole inside of me, and drinking makes me forget about that deep hole.
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