I Found Out I’m Not His Father & Her Line Up of Potential Candidates

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by Jeff Billings in Retroactive Jealousy Stories
June 1, 2018
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Author: Theo (40) from the United States, in a committed relationship with his girlfriend (35) for one year.

Number of his sexual partners: 16

Number of his girlfriend’s sexual partners: 50

How long have you suffered from retroactive jealousy?
5 months

How much time a day do you spend thinking about your partner’s past?
All day and all night

How did you find out about your partner’s past?
I found out about my girlfriend’s past involuntarily, initially by some of her poisonous insensitive family members and was later attested to by concerned mutual friends.

Have you talked to her about your retroactive jealousy and if so what happens?
No, but I spoke to a few of our mutual friends who all support the idea of leaving her.

Tell us what exactly you’re jealous about in their past?
I know for a fact that I’m being lied to about an extremely promiscuous past that bled into the timeline of our relationship. There is a degree of suspected infidelities and a lingering disgust about her actions, frequency, timing and denial of it all.

I’m jealous that she’s been a genuine freak with all the other men but she is not even flirtatious with me. Nude pictures. Masturbating videos. Erotic messaging and countless invites. “Freaky” sexual acts with everyone else but currently shows little desire with me at all.

I also saw that she had a few men who were way bigger than me. In addition, these men spoiled her with lavish trips and gifts. Half of these men were married and it eats at me that she has zero remorse for that.

I have to be drunk to engage physically with her now because I can’t touch her otherwise with all the visions of all the nasty things, all the ejaculation all over her, the bed we share having been the “stomping grounds for several men.

Lastly, I’ve always wanted more kids. She let a married man come into her house arriving drunk in the middle of the night unannounced and impregnate her. Yet she will not have another child with me.

I’m jealous and angry and that this is resulting in her undeservingly receiving a giant settlement as hush money from a wealthy man (enough to retire) while I’m raising the child.

What bugs you the most about your partner’s past?
The fact that she feels entitled to her actions in the past and stands firm that she would never change it. Also the adamant lies. She swears on our son’s life that she didn’t commit these actions, not knowing that I have concrete proof.

Have you ever snooped through your partner’s personal belongings off or online?
Yes. After being injected with mounds of suspicion by the aforementioned people, I finally caved and scoured her phone, finding TWICE the amount of disgusting content than I was initially lead to believe she participated in.

Is your partner still in contact with their ex-lover(s) or does your partner contact them?

Have you met your partner’s ex-lovers and if so what happened?
I have shaken hands unknowingly with a few, only later finding out that these men have recently enjoyed her.

If you could get one image out of your head regarding your partner’s past, what would it be?
Her being wild with a huge line up of man after man after man in a very short timeline. I do not even benefit from her experience level. She is boring and awful in bed with me. And when I subversively invite her to be “more herself” with me, she claims with ultimate conviction that she’s not some freak in the sheets I “make her out to be” and then accuses me of making her feel inadequate!

Is there anything else you’d like to share? Fire away!
I feel insecure, inadequate, small, unappealing, distrusted, victimized, lied to, pathetic, dismissed and undesired. I feel resentment and borderline hate towards for the complete absence of remorse towards the fact that I was included in a line up of 5 men who were possible fathers to the boy I love and want to raise. Her moral compass is disgusting at best and I feel urgency towards not leaving my “son” to be raised only by her.

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