Author: Erik (20), male, USA, is in a committed relationship with his girlfriend for 8 months with his girlfriend (20).
Number of his sexual partners:
2
Number of his girlfriend’s sexual partners:
18
How long have you suffered from retroactive jealousy?
Since we started dating.
How much time a day do you spend thinking about your partner’s past?
A few hours every day
How did you find out about your partner’s past?
She told me about her past and how many people she had been with.
Tell us what exactly you’re jealous about in their past?
There were many one night stands. 3 “f**k buddies” and only a few committed relationships. I was always led to believe sex was to be with someone you cared about. She gave it up so easily and to so many people it seems like when we have sex it is not special.
What bugs you the most about your partner’s past?
There was cheating involved and “f**k buddies” who would have sex with her with no strings attached. Many people were having sex with my girlfriend by basically saying I wanna f**k and no resistance being given. It seems like when we have sex it is really not special if she has had sex with so many people who she was not even in a committed relationship with.
If you could get one image out of your head regarding your partner’s past, what would it be?
Her 6 foot 3 inch tall, blonde, buff, ex- f**k buddy f**king her, while she moans for him.
Is there anything else you’d like to share? Fire away!
I want to get this out of my head so bad. She has told me repeatedly I am the only one she ever loved. She loves me but I can’t stop thinking I am the 18th guy to have gotten intimate with her, while she only actually loved one.
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